Camping Vibe In, Laziness Out

We spent a great weekend out at the City of Rocks Nat'l Park out by Silver City, NM Friday and Saturday. It was a little rough camping with two tiny children but we are getting better at it. The stress and toughness of having the babes with us was nothing compared the awesomeness we encountered during our trip down south.

My four year old son had the choice of either going to a place with rocks for climbing (City of Rocks) or somewhere up by Red River with a stream and forest. When he picked the rock place we honestly were not that excited. When we were almost there we seriously thought, "We are in the middle of nothing and there are not any rocks of any kind any where." And then all of a sudden we went over a hill and there it was. This sort of Stonehenge-like cluster of rocks. A huge cluster. I'm talking a mile or two wide and about a mile across. It was so cool! We completely geeked out.

Our campsite

My husband had reserved one of the kind of secluded camp sites that was so perfect that I think we plan to reserve that spot for future trips to the City of Rocks. We camped, we made fire, we roasted marshmallows, grilled hot dogs, hiked, climbed on rocks, and all of the wonderful fun that ensues when camping. Our four year old was a little sick when we left and had a full blown cold by the beginning of day two but we had so much fun before we packed up a little early and headed home.

Me and my two kiddos

We did a total of about 5 miles hiking that day. So fun!

My four year old loves to climb and run.

My husband and two boys

My husband climbing up these huge rocks!

When we got home and got up the next day we decided we had such a great time in the outdoors that we wanted to continue that active pace and keep away from our tv. We are admitted television addicts. We'll be the first to admit it. But we love, love, love being outdoors. I love running. My husband love mountain biking. Our children absolutely love being outside and particularly in water. But somehow we spend a lot of time sucked into tv land. And so with our fun weekend camping we wanted to bring home the feeling of being away from the tv and enjoying life and getting shit done. Hopefully this will continue past day one and we can work on a change of pace here. It's been wonderful so far and I'm stoked to keep it up.

First 5K Race, Here I Come

In just about eight or nine short weeks I have gone from not being able to run for more than two minutes at a time to being able to run my whole 3.1 miles without stopping. I am so amazed and so proud of myself. When I first started running I couldn't even fathom what it would be like to run the whole three mile loop. I was exhausted and huffing and puffing like I was going to pass out after running for like three minutes. My first 5K race is still three weeks away so I have plenty of time to pick up my pace a little before I actually cross the finish line. And I can't wait. I simply can't wait to see my husband and my two boys waiting for me at the end of my first race. I have never competed in anything before. I have never participated in sports in any way. So to set this goal and achieve it is going to be the best feeling in the world.
I haven't even done this race yet and I've set my schedule and training program in place to prepare for a 10K next. I know if I thought it was impossible to do 5K in eight weeks but here I am running 3 miles better and better each time that I can do 6 miles before I know it. I have another 5K race lined up for February and I should be able to do the 10K early spring when it warms up a little. I don't care to run in the cold but luckily we live in NM and it's not often too "cold" comparatively with say, oh Chicago! So here's to reaching goals and setting sights higher and higher. I am so excited.

In Need of a Power-Up

This is me. Yep, exhausted to the point where I just want to stop where I am, lay down, and sleep, for a long, long time.

There are many contributing factors to my tiredness. I feel overworked and overwhelmed with many duties that I have and the stress that is coming with them is probably making me even more so exhausted. Taking care of my two little boys, definitely exhausting. Cleaning house, grocery shopping, laundry, cooking, etc. All the usual housewife and motherly things are really quite tiresome. And lastly, my stupid period is on the horizon, looming over me for the next day or two sucking my any last source of energy I have until I am as lifeless as corpse.

I hate feeling this way. I hate not having enough energy. I think doing work in front of this computer screen really zaps me too.  I have got to get a little plug in. You know, like an ipod or ipad or something. Just hook me up for a few hours and I'll have power bar at full tilt boogie. (sigh)

Money, the bane of my exisitence.

Let me preface with saying that I know I can budget. I know that my family's income is far less than the expenses we incur every month. Mostly, these expenses are not necessities but rather things we buy just because we want to. And this is becoming a big problem.

I am so sick and tired of not having any money. My husband goes and works at a job he hates (well mostly a company he hates) and every time we get his pay check it's long since spent before we even get to thinking about having anything extra. But we spend anyway and get those extras. And honestly at this point because I have forgone sticking to a budget like, oh let's say the day after we write up our budget, we are always in the rears now. It feels like there is no catching up.

Now here's my real gripe. I have several times in the last couple years offered to get a part time job. I would work at night because I stay at home and take care of our two little boys all day long. My husband always says, "no way." And here's his stance. He thinks I am already tired and stressed out enough as it is being a stay at home mom and working from home with my own business while trying to launch a new more in depth business than I've ever launched on my own. And when I'm tired and stressed out the whole world better watch out because I'm not going to lie, I am a stark raving mad bitch. I just lose it, especially if we throw hunger into the mix. Oh hell, you better just duck and cover people. Duck and cover. Also, he wonders when we will ever get to see each other. And not only will my new levels of tiredness and bitchiness create strain on our relationship but then not seeing each other will just make him crazy. I am okay with it and not because I don't love spending time with my husband but because I know I will just appreciate every second together even more.

So, how can I convince him to let me get a job so we can get out of this money hole and be able to enjoy our lives again? I have even told him it would be temporary but he says, "If it is only temporary then we will just be right back where we started if not worse so what's the point?" And yes, he does have valid points. All of his reasons as to why me getting a part time evening job are a bad idea make complete sense. However, I still disagree. I believe that for my own peace of mind and knowing that I am working to get us to a better financial state that I won't feel like his hard work every week won't seem so... well pointless. I mean, he works and works and for what? To continue to not have money? No thank you.  I suppose I believe that I would rather have more money and get a little ahead, if only for a while, than to get farther in the shit and have "happy relationships". Because to tell you the truth there is no happiness when the shit piles so high.