Hello Blog. Long time no see. It's been very hectic as life usually is. Started back into the work force. Mom's classes haven't been filling up, cancelling, hair appointments are sporadic and inconsistent. Daniel and I had used up all our savings and had been using credit to help live life. Dad's job is uncertain on it's longevity as the building industry is still very hurt by the economic crisis that's been shaking the country for years now. So, I headed back to work. Mom watches the boys every day while I work from about 6am until anywhere from 3:30 to 4:30pm. I love my new job and the company I work for. I enjoy the work and I am happy contributing to the household and helping pay the bills. But the work hours are long and I'd make them longer if I could. But I have to come home and see my family at some point. It leaves very little time for writing or reading or any other of the fun stuff I enjoy. Running has become almost obsolete on my schedule which is really awful. I signed up for the Albuquerque Half Marathon that is in about three weeks. I don't know if I'll be ready. NO, I will be ready. But it is hard for me to leave work and go train. I get sucked into the projects and issues that need resolving at work and before I know it the hour and half which I should have been training I end up working.
I also have signed up for the Jemez Mountain 50K trail race in the Jemez Mountains which is on May 19. I signed up and set my goal high because it's on Ryan's birthday and the day after he died one year ago. I saw the date of the race and knew in my heart I had to do it. But again, the training has been very poor and I'm concerned about being able to make it half way much less the whole 30 miles. I had a 10 miler a few weeks ago and that went awful. I didn't even finish. The weather was shit though and Ashton was racing his first Kid K so I wanted to make it back to see him rather than suffer through the wind and dirt another 4 miles.
Today Daniel is in Gallup pre-riding the race course out there for some MTB race he is doing soon. Mom and Dad are out and Ashton is spending the weekend at Grandma Trujillo's house. So it has just been me and Travis today. Wow, it has been wonderful. So much less stressful. Ashton is so high energy that it really just takes all my patience to just not blow up at him because he is always going, always moving, always (and I mean always) talking. Ash and Daniel both need lots of attention and need to be entertained or have a project going or they just don't know what to do with themselves. I feel like I've always got to keep up go, go , go mode just to keep them from making me crazy. And Travis, well, he is my little sweetheart. He just does his own thing. He will participate with everyone else as it suits him and has attitude like you wouldn't believe. All you need is a look from that kid and you know either he is up to something or that you have seriously pissed him off. But he's also a cuddle bug and I love it. Today was easy just me and him. I loved it.
I have even found a half hour to sit down and just blog my little mind away. This could be nice to do everyday. Ha ha ha. I don't even know how I'd find extra half hour that I'm not completely wasted tired to write so today I'm totally taking advantage.
It's been so beautiful outside. I am in love with Spring time. The days get longer. The sun is out. I can sit outside and just soak up the sun in my bathing suit, enjoy a cold beverage, run in the evening, and be totally happy with that day.
I am feeling pretty good today. Daniel has been making more money at his new job and will be getting bonuses and commissions which are helping us get out of debt. Today I went shopping and it wasn't even a worry about if there was any money to spend. I actually could go to the store and buy stuff, fun stuff, and not be completely strapped for cash until next pay check. We've been able to help give Mom and Dad a little extra here and there. Buying groceries doesn't put us in debt. We actually have money after we get paid. And best of all we're well on our way to paying off our debts. I can see the light at the end of our financial tunnel and it's freakin' glorious. So that right there puts me in a good mood. Like I said, I got to go shopping. That puts me a great mood. I bought two paid of lightly used designer jeans which were both fifty percent off plus the store was have promotional additional fifteen percent off everything. I was able to buy my sister-in-law a great Cole Haan purse for her birthday tomorrow and I even got to get myself a new purse while I was there. It was phenomenal. Travis and I went to lunch together and had cheap Chinese food which was delicious and filling. And when I came home I was still in love the purchases I had made today. The sun is shinning. Baby is sleeping. I am going to get some cleaning done next. All these things make me feel good. And I'm happy to be feeling good again. I am happy to be feeling hopeful and like myself again. Sometimes I just need a day myself to do whatever I want and to enjoy the goodness that is around me. And as I take in a deep breath and fill my lungs with happiness I feel love.
One love. Happy Day.
